unexpected.
Title: Unexpected.
Author: juliandarling
Rating: NC-17
Prompt Set: 50.11
Prompt: 003. Unexpected.
Word Count: 250
Summary: Sirius muses on his relationship with Regulus.
Warnings: Oh, the usual incest. No smut. Sap.
Notes: Sappy, oh sappy. I don't know what I was thinking.

Sirius watches Regulus sleep.

Sirius can't remember a time when Regulus wasn't more than a brother. He knows that it's sick. He's painfully aware of how disgusting he is. How horrible, depraved he is for touching his younger brother and letting Regulus touch him. He feels like a lecherous old man, preying on the young weak.

But he drowns in those grey eyes, those grey eyes that mirror his own. He drowns in his little brother's soft curls and skin so translucent you can see the blue veins pulsing beneath. He loses himself in that lilting voice, a cross between a rasp and dulcet bells. He loves, and adores his little brother.

But he can't tell anyone. He can't confess. He can't. Not without losing his friends, his family, his sanity. He'd be thrown into Azkaban for incest, molestation. Horrible words, nasty words, words that don't describe what he has with Regulus.

Regulus is more than a fling, more than those girls he presses up against musty tapestry and gropes casually. Regulus is the pauses between each breath, the end of a sunset. He hates being sappy but Regulus reduces him to little more than a love sick dog. It's amusing, almost.

It was unexpected, he knows that. He knows that he never wanted to be this way, but this is how he is. And he wants to let it go. Let Regulus marry some girl with thick white blonde hair, and blood bluer than the night sky. He wants to run away. But he can't.